Meteor

2006-04-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

yea hate me people.
i hate myself too.
wth am i doing.
i find myself more and more complicated.
i realli hav extreme thots and feelings.
ohwell...
my feelings are always polluted.
negative.
sad.
let me admit it.
im pessimistic.
my thots are usually right
my actions are guided by my thots.
i search for perfection in my attitudes
to be morally right.
i've done wrong before.
i now it's wrong when i do it
i jus din want to bury my feelings.
but now
my feelings are overpowering my thots.
my feelings are leading me to go against my thots.
wad should i do now?
i am a fake person
i hide my true inner feelings
wad i do may not be wad i tink
ohmann i sound so devilish.
i hide them to not hurt ppl.
the prob is i cant seem to control my emotions anymore.
im abt to lose the self control i used to hav
i cry because i try too hard to curb them until it hurts.
if i dun curb them
it'll be others im hurting.
i'll hate myself even more if i hurt ppl around me.
so now no matter wad i do im hating myself
my feelings are getting stronger and stronger
and ppl are arousing my feeling to deepen.
i always follow my mind rather than my heart.
thou ppl may tink im too practical.
i dun feel i hav a good heart.
if not for my mind
i'd hav lose myself somewhere.
dis going against of oneself is so damn hard.
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napfa 2.4km run today.
peiqi and mich was great.
i tink i tried my best
thou e results arent dat terrific.
14:02.
at least i got an a which was wad i wanted.

someone teach me how to completely neglect my feelings.

she's brave

2006-04-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

yeah she's brave. extremely.
dats all i can actualli say.
it takes courage to fight for
wad you lose
wad you want
and wad you are willing to exchange your life for.
i realli admire you for your strong character.
you are fighting for your one true love.
i dun doubt it at all.
jiayou you can de ((:
truthfully speaking im not realli fond of you
but somehow my prespection has changed.
if you happen to visit dis place
pls DO NOT GIV UP.
you noe wad you want the best.
stay strong and firm to your belief.
it will pay off : D

here's a girl who loves a guy enuff to giv up her lyfe for him. here's a guy who has other priorities in lyfe. he once loved her and still loves her. she once loved him, still loves him and will always love him. fate dun be cruel to them and if dey are destined to be, dun break them apart. let dis be a test of their love. let dis not be the end. let him continue to love her the same...

2006-04-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

heys we had our napha test today!!!
i think i very useless sia.
at fers damn worried abt my standing broad jump. i cant jump!!
before the test, peisi, felicia, huixian, baorui, huaypeng and occupied 3j classroom to practise. hahas.
i passed but still quite paiseh abt the result.
umm most i can say is it's a c -.- uh i got a d grade for inclined pull up lo.
stupid.
wads the prob wif me...
ppl can do at least over 10 can...
haishh...
althou dey were shouting JUNYANG JUNYANG like crazy la huh... lols.
ohwells... you guys were very encouraging (:
if not for you ppl i wun even be able to do 9 of it (urgh so paiseh again lols!).
i missed c grade by ONE pullup.
and i missed GOLD cos of ONE pullup.
suay rite...
i regret not pushing myself hard.
felicia and i made a pact
-- we will push our limits and get gold next year!! ((=
she missed her gold onli cos of her jump.
quite a pity too.
2.4 km run!!!
i must follow eunice or felicia.
hopefully we can pia thru and get an A!
dancers can run too kaes!!!
lols.
we were in the hall after the test.
it was shocking to see how swallon his forehead is.
ohmann...
i wonder if he's okay now.
im damn pissed wif the teachers.
wth are dey doing lo...
he's in terrible pain can...
look at the swell and obviously his head hurts damn lot
imagine a guy crying cos of an injury
it must hurt alot rite?
but dey could still talk and laugh dere...
cant dey try harder to help him get up and stuff?
he couldnt even stand properly
so how do you expect him to walk down e stairs and all the way to sickbay?
will it kill any male teacher to piggy back him or support him more?
haishh...
i cant bear the sight of it!!!
duno how he is now...
oh takaire kaes...
hopefully everything is okay.

another thing- the school dislikes 3k.
cos we dun produce good-enough academic results and cleaniness status?
we can improve in all of them
and we WILL.
it's unfair to come in and comment abt our discipline like dis.
in your eyes 3k is like the worst class in the whole of rv.
i nv noe a class can be blacklisted in dis manner.
since the start no one pinned any hope on us
the teacher i realli appreciate the most is ms yew.
althou she tinks dat 3k is the not-so-good class compared to 3b and 3g,
i can see she is nice to us and puts in alot of effort.
ms tanlayyen thinks our class is terrible.
she's not bad actualli.
it's hard not to admit
the teacher who looks down on us the most is most prob mrchan.
you noe we feel disappointed in you too?
we've never been respected.
everytime before the test you will imagine dat you can foreshadow our performance.
you never fail to put us down
and say dat our class will fail badly.
it realli brings our morale down.
how do you decide if a student is interested?
simply by his/her results.
the things you write in our report slips were jus copy and paste(s).
you look at the result and an a grade will hav comments like
"dis student shows great interest" blahblah.
biasness.
any 3k ppl who happen to read dis
dun get affected by wad parents complain or wad teachers comment.
3k will shine one day
proving to ppl our class can be great
showing to teachers dat we are capable.
no one believes in us so the more we must work harder! ((=

2006-04-06T18:11:00.000+08:00

whee back from sec3 adventure camp!! althou it's likea ytd thing.
the camp is fun!!! seriously i love kayaking! all the splashing of water and teamwork.
kayaking completely rawk!
im jus glad it din rain to disrupt our water activities.
it's a pity some other groups din hav a chance to try them.
upset dat i din get to try flying fox and abseiling thou.
damn rain.
all the cheering sessions were BORING.
dead boring.
ohwells some of the games were not bad la.
yahh and i did one of the high elements!!!
whee clap clap!!
im obviously scared but up dere i only wanted to finish walking dat path.
i think it's much scary to giv up halfway and you'll hav to step out
FALLING ALL THE WAY DOWN.
isnt dat more horrible den jus overcoming your fear and complete it?
it's wad i think la.
sense of achievement (:
althou it's nothing great la duh. hahas.
the general stations not badd.
some games a little lame.

the most awaited nite.
CAMPFIRE!!!
can see many classes very united liaos.
3k bonded alot too ((=
i cant deny or hide my strong sense of disappointment thou.
we really put up a good show.
at least dats wad we think.
dere were alot of effort put in
and everyone tried their best.
seventh position.
seventh 7th...
i thot we deserved better.
im not against any single class
cos the plain fact is everyone had interesting class items.
3c dance is very neat and dey are united.
3i is creative and had their own indian style. very funny and refreshing.
3j has nice dance steps and good dancers plus dey self composed a song.
3l dance has a fast pace and the steps are strong, neat and sharp. very cool.
the top three positions had their strengths and i believe dey deserved it.
my point is 3k is not bad too!!
why are we placed like at the seventh position?
wif a tie at the 2nd place 3k is like the 8th among 12 classes.
ohmann i din expect dis freaking result.
we werent dat screwed up rite?
sigh
wad can i say?
it's all over. fixed. undeniable seventh place.
i hope our spirits stay high
and dat dis bond will not break.
it's not easy bringing up the morale
let's not go back to wad it was at the start.
i really appreciate wad every single one in 3k has done.
i cant bear the thot dat our morale will go all the way down after dis.
dey announced the fers three positions.
no 3k---
my eyes were hot and i bit my lips
i din want to let them hav their way
i din want to be so sad
dey announced, seventh position 3k.
and finally i couldnt stand it
dey got their way eventually.
peisi sat beside telling me
jie dun be like dis.
i heard cheers and screams.
i hav no single idea who dey were.
so sorry everyone
i noe i shldnt be like dis.
still i stand strong to my belief dat 3k absolutely rawks.
all of you din disappoint me
we hav done our very best for sure (:
like wad eunice saed
the results may be disappointing
but the touching moments when we practised the dance tgt has far exceeded the disappointment.
da jia jiayou!!!
3k is my PRIDE and i love all of you!!!
SMILES!!!
3k will be back stronger and more bonded than ever ((=

2006-03-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

MY RESOLUTIONS

1. stop disliking ANYONE.

2. learn to be smarter.

3. stop crying

4. stop laughing hysterically for nothing -.-

sec3 adventure camp ish COMING!!! oh mann so excited. but im alone in dis group! wad ish dis lo. pegasus group c. sum weird weird group. hahas. i cant wait for the class performance thou. 3k dance is great! we'll show you guys wad we can do. dis ish 100% 3K DANCE.
I CAN SAY IT BIG AND PROUD DAT WE DID THE WHOLE DANCE OURSELVES!!! YES I MEAN OURSELVES. WE PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT AND IT'S UNFAIR IF ANYONE THINK WE COPIED. 3K HAS A CLEAR CONSCIENCE. OUR DANCE JUS RAWK!! ((=
dey could hav thot so but im surprised you think so. eunice is surprised too. we duno dat you all will think like dis. eunice was e main choreographer and other than 3j's, she never looked at other ppl's dance at all. i mean she's absolutely capable of choreographing and dere's no nid for us to copy anything.
why are things cuming to dis stage? i thot the class items were meant to bond classes and dis level tgt but now, it's no longer like dis. it is now a competition to cause conflicts. i admit im pissed off. i'll try to keep to my resolution. i shall jus shuddup. the only thing i want to say is i dun care wad ppl think. i only want 3k to believe in us. we really worked hard for it... 3k jiayou jiayou! (:

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2006-03-15T12:27:00.000+08:00

im so sad.
wad is dis mann
everyday i wake up feeling all so tensed and stressed.
i wish i dun even hav to live dis freaking life of mine.
it's been ages since i felt like dis.
i thot it was e end and i wun get to taste dis pain again.
at least not so soon.

im here simply out of boredom.
later going peisi's house to do math.
dere's physics and maths tmr
and i so dun wan to go.
okay... maybe im supposed to be in school now for chem
obviously im not.
for no good reason.
my mood jus sarks now.
so can the school leave me alone for awhile?
oh yahh im getting so ap
I NOE
dun say i changed or wadever.
i did not.
it's dat i've been hiding all dese apness to myself for too long.
dis is my place
let me hav a little say can?
i dun do dis right in front of ppl
so let me vent it all out here pls.

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even if ppl care
i still hav to get all dese over by myself bahh.
i'll =)) without faking soon de.
for now, sorry guys...

2006-03-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

SICK.

ohmans why am i like dis... i wasnt like dis... giv me a break can... bahh... i've been faking all e smiles... and onli in front of close frens can i be at ease... inside im feeling all so tangled and contradicting. giv me sum time... all e expectations are giving me stress. i already cant stand myself doing a little wrong thing to ppl or forsaking anyone. e things ppl are unhappy wif... i noe. maybe im realli a prefectionist to myself. i dunwan to do anything to hurt anyone.

--- once upon a time ---

2006-03-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

never be replaced.

Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you
Yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time
From the day i met you i knew we'd be together
And now i know i want to be with you forever
I want to marry you and i want to have your kids
Thinking can never compare to the feeling of your kisses

I can say im truely happy till this day
You make me thank god that i live my life every day
There's never been a doubt in my mind that i'd regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that i have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday that i spent with you and i will miss you cause im happy that i had you at all

Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and i'll never let you go
But if i have to boy i think that you should know
All the love we make can never be replaced
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

2006-03-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

e slackest weekday (:

im glad i din receive any results today. i've already failed sum subjects and i cant take so many blows all tgt. oh mans my studies jus sarks... okay wadever. i'll try harder next time.
hmm not bad today... but i realli wanted to slp during math lesson. it's not e lesson dats boring but it's me who's too tired. i thot slping early shld giv mie more energy?

ytd nite was so farnie. i was slping very peacefully until my hp started vibrating at 0327 midnite... like crazy? which normal person will call ppl for nth at 3 sth? hahas. i immediately answered e call den i heard a guy's voice at e other end... blahblahblahblah.... he went on and on for a min... my mind was obviously not awake so i din understand a single thing he saed. so i went huh.huh.huh for so many times... i onli rmbed him asking "do you noe who im?" den i saed no cos my hp fonebook doesnt hav e number saved. he asked again " you realli realli duno who im?" and i saed "NO!" again. den he went blahblahblah once again... and suddenly e call ended after almost 4 mins -.- dun understand a thing... dun care i wanted slp. so i closed e hp and threw it on e bed and went back to slp straight away. lols. so now i still duno wad exactly happened. sound comical? xp

wells tmr is e most boring day. i always get e stress when it's leeleemui class. i can die. im always scared she'll enter e class and scold ppl or throw ppl out of e class. sigh... gonna face her for these 2 years. horror sia... bahh... end here den. tata everyone. takaire!! ((:

2006-02-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

wad the freaking hell. e feeling of falling. when you no longer hav anything to do wif a person, it's jus common sense dat you shut up and go away. you hav no rights to take a second glance at wadever dat concerns dat person or continue to get updated of dat person's life. it's simply none of your business. stop tinkin. im talking to e mirror. ppl stop asking. i've done all those. i shutup. i went away. i din take any second glance. i din get updated. yea correct... peisi saed being a princess is perfect. i thot otherwise. princesses hav their lives all planned. dey may end up marrying princes. oh great... princess and prince always make a perfect match. *roll eyes* princes are like not wad we read in fairytales. prince charming? jus a description of e fake most perfect fairytale...

oh wells... common test finally ended. it took AGES for it to. those studying can kill. freak. i failed e chi compo which is like 40% of e total score. pro rite.. duno why i can still laugh abt it. although e paper itself i got 32.5, compo pulled me down like siao. bleh... great job i've done. -.-

dis is written by my dear sijia half a year ago.

For you

the things i saed were never to be
all i ever wanted was
you.
you and only you.

believe me
believe everything i say.
believe me
for they are all so very true.

i wish you are here
right beside me this very moment.
everything you hear
from the deepest of my heart.

i love you so
please believe me.
i love you so
please dun doubt me.

promise me
you'll take my hand.
promise me
you'll never let go.

2006-02-17T19:57:00.000+08:00

BLEAHxxx... dis is MY blog so i can write using singlish or wadever language. it's perfectly legal. dere's no vulgarities here i suppose... i duno why dat passer-by is so pissed off with e language used. wads more... dun insult ppl... ah-lian is not english either if dat person tinks he/she types perfect english-.- puke... act pro... lols.
okay wadever. i neglected dis blog again... i hate dis common test week... i heard dat 3i alot of ppl din do well for chi so i expect myself to not score well too. maths... alot duno how to do. physics... as if i hav e time to properly attempt e last 2 pages. elit... obviously im not sure of part ii. overall... im dead can? zzz... if every tues hav dance, wed hav to stay back for physics to c leeleemui, thurs for math remedial, fri dance again... im realli dead. tired to death... when im practically slping past 12 everynite.
presents!! thankew guys for all those things. hahas. i guess all of you had fun too (:
everyone jiayou for common test! <3

2006-01-19T17:40:00.000+08:00

=\ i rather not noe. i rather... i rather... freak.

[no one understands... i wish no one will...]

crap crap crap

2006-01-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

mii blog doesnt deserve dis. puke... im terribly disgusted... arr...

well... tmr is e concert le. today rehearsal wasnt realli dat fine. i not sure also... dey saed e eldds ppl was on e stage suddenly den no space for them to go out. and when dey were outside, e music duno until where le cannot follow. tink dey stood dere quite long before starting to dance. but.. but it's not their fault rite? mr lee looked unhappy again... when we were asked to stand for school song, heard dat sum dance ppl rolled their eyes or sth... haishh... duno how true isit either... kk remain positive attitude. must SMILE!! lols. yup... guess we got improvements le... er... it's tmr la... but not realli good yet... hope tmr turns out fine. best of luck for all performing arts groups!!! cheers... (:

2006-01-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

aww... tmr is e rehearsal le. how? not prepared like dat... sigh... quite excited ba duno why also. scared do wrong things get scolded too. ayo... damn cold now. hahas. but i dun mind. realli like e cold weather. ytd i dropped my hp again again!!! and summore halfway during class wor. pro rite? lols. freaking scared lo... den immediately pick up from e floor and hide inside my jacket. hahas. nice experience... not so nice if dat teacher saw it. i wasnt using it anyway. it jus accidentally dropped out when i was taking out my books. 3k has been a wonderful class so far... e notice board hasnt been realli dat successful... but we pro ppl wun giv up de xp. lols. jk de la. jiaxin saed 3k is fortunate to hav huixian as our welfare head. (: so proud of my twin sis. hahas. im feeling sick now hope i'll be ok. dunwan be sick these few days. my life is stuupid enough le. aww gawd...

2006-01-03T20:15:00.000+08:00

whee... fers day of school... sorta great... but sorta not so pleasant too... shant elaborate le... jus hope 3k can realli bond tgt... today sum of us were discussing wad shld e K stand for... peisi loves e 3kindergarten and 3kayatoast lo i tink. sharry tot of 75%knock-out which is like so nice la... yup mich loves dat i tink. eh... still got 3konnichiwa, 3kampateh and alot alot... lols. hehe... it's a fun day i guess... minus sum parts of it... okay... i dun mind la actualli... yeap looking forward to orientation tmr... 3k rawk on! =))

2005-12-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

im tired im tired!!! dis week tues, wed, thurs, fri all got dance... wake up so early... im sleepy liao. lols. 3k!!! yeah... 3k you noe... i noe i noe 3k definitely rawks de. (: whee... actualli duno wad i want to talk abt also. hahas. jus blogging for fun cos ppl will start saying i nv update de. lols. btw can ppl stop tagging my blog without writing names? hahas. jkjk. i nv set such rules la of cos. but hope you guys understand i prefer to noe your names ya? school re-opening soon le... realli very excited. new environemnt. new classmates. tink maybe i wun get used to writing e '3k'. not used to it ma. gonna pia hw... sobs... how wonderful will dis holiday be without hw... sigh... anyway i will nv forget 2hyper'05 de. left mii lots of nice memories. i put e class foto at my file dere so i'll get to c all hyperists. realli will miss you all de!!! xp k la gtg le. nite nite everyone... =D

2005-12-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

oppps... i forgot abt dis... 5 random and weird facts abt me... i wonder who started dis. lols.

fers: for sum reason i hav meat phobia other than fish. although i noe perfectly well dey are cooked and i wun be poisoned to death. hahas. hmm... jus disgusting and smelly... arr... no offence pls... hav nth against ppl who eat them of cos or i'll hate most of e ppl on earth le. hahas.

second: i m scared of my sis. extremely sensitive to her. lols.

third: i leave my hp everywhere in e house and i always hav trouble finding it. dats why i usually dun put silent mode at home. at least i can call and noe where it is. xp

fourth: i luf po!!

fifth: err... cant tink of anything already. if dere ish... ppl close to me will definitely noe la... ask dem hao le. =p

2005-12-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

lols. very long nv update blog le and many ppl nagging at me already. kk. i updating now can? lols. im alone at home slacking now... mummie daddie at work. sis went for co le.
k fersly... thanks guys... guess it was mii best burfdae le... cos ppl usually dun care or forget abt it... lols. err... e details dun feel like saying... hahas.
arrs... can u believe it? more than half of e 2 months holiday passed by already... and i haven touched my hw... hmm... abit ba... 2 and a half maths paper onli. better than did nth but not realli considered sth... lols. dunno wad i talking again liao. i m desperately struggling wif my maths. maybe cos it's hard or maybe cos i m stupid. which i tink is cos of e second reason. xp ohh ya suddenly rmb... i got pure geog sub elit!!! yeahh... last time din tink of taking elit de... tot i dislike it alot. but macbeth made mii start to love it... i guess. yupps i m jus glad dat i will be taking dis combi. no history =) i dun hate history of cos. but jus look at my writing speed... i can nv finish a history paper lo. many 2h ppl taking it as well. like... let's see.... peisi, michelle, kitleng, clare, eileen, yining, jay, jiawei, fuen, marcus, bingyang... er... still got de rite? but i cant seem to rmb. hahas. sorry. i m jus glad dat 2h ppl can be tgt again.
sijia- pure geog sub hist physics chem
jiamin-pure geog sub hist physics chem
chrystal- pure elit sub geog physics chem
hmm... so onli possibility is dat sijia and jiamin will end up in e same sec 3 class. sobs... my dear, my nuer and my mummy... canot be tgt like last time le... family forever k? i love u guys always...
now i m freaking worried abt my hp bill and my holi hw and presents for burfdaes and christmas... gawd... 16 dec start dance again... duno if i m looking forward to it too... gonna continue doing maths paper le ): poor life. hahas. tata~

2005-11-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

Just in dat split second, when mrs tan saed "thank you class!", everything ended. e 2 years. 2hyper'05 ceased to become history just at the moment. in everyone's eyes, a colourless liquid flooded and for no reason, i was addicted to hugging all of them. though no one could stop the tears, we jus wanted to treasure each and every moment we are left with tgt. the "qi li xing li!" dat we took so much for granted will never be heard again in 2h'05. e most special class dat i ever had. i gonna miss you guys... e hyper spirit will never stop burning. we shall become more united as one. we met at the crossroad. it takes more than fate for these 39 individuals to meet here. jus here. in 2 hyper'05. we shall nv overtake one another. hand in hand, we will always be there for one another. no more fights. no more quarrels. i may not have e chance to be with all of you again. but no matter where i am, i will never forget any part of this puzzle. e 2h'05 film will continue playing non-stop for we shall stay tgt forever. once a hyperist always a hyperist. muacks. i luf all of you...

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Though perhaps no amt of sorry can amend it, i still can only say sorry... sorry...

2005-10-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

yup it's damn farnie. yeah i saw everything le... ya so? lols. who are the ones faking lo... i mean if you are really dat real, sincere and popular den u wun write such hurting and offending stuff le... i have my feelings too kz... i noe it so well dat i am ugly and stuff but i nv act lyk duno wad la... haish... kns... sth i have to say I DUN GO AROUND CALLING ALL GUYS MY GOR!!! lols. i only have one gor and dis is e only gor i will ever have. i dun need ppl to protect me cos i can do it myself and no one bullies me can? stop passing remarks dat u dun even noe it lo... i dun pull the acting chio and faking off properly cos i din even at the start. Relationships between guys and girls need not be as complicated as wad u tink it may be. he's really jus my gor la... ya i do luf him as my gor like how u luf ur siblings and how i luf my sis. it ish completely diff from ur luf for him... btw who am i posing as?? hmm... u ar?? LOLS. jkjk. but dats really how i interpret it as... maybe u dun mean dat.. ya... actually i dun quite like u too... i pose as you so dat i dun like myself? lols?! yup i am disgusting i agree too. hahas. winning an award ar... seriously i dun mind leh lols. k la i noe i being so damn stupid and sarca here... but i dun really mind... for goodness sake... sexy outfits??? tink so if i change my drawer with you first. lols!!!! not really dat shocked to see those stuff cos haven u repeat saying the same old thing since few years ago? i nv explained myself before properly to you so i guess i have my faults too... sorry for my offending postings and stuff... i very guo fen yup... but i have to pour these things out i have my rights to let others see my side of e story dunch i? i nv scolded anyone vulgur or bitches or sluts and i have my own principle not to scold anyone lyk dat. no one deserves to be called in dat lowly manner... u are not a slut and u are nt a bitch... please at least have some respect for others. u dun like to be scolded lyk dat too right? perhaps u dun xihan...jus want to tell you dat i am sorta affected by those remarks but will not blame hate or anything... you are not my fren but u are neither my enemy. i am not dat kind to always tolerate ur nonsense. i will not hate you cos it makes one unhappy to be filled with hatred. i wun hate anyone de la... so i've made everything clear and if there's still such posts abt sluts in ur blog again den i've nth to say le -.- btw i duno why but was laughing throughout reading e post sia... lols. i noe dat it's me la den i still laugh till lyk dat i duno how others will react lo... damn farnie la... after a night sleep everything will be okde i wun tink abt it anymore too :) yea i am fine =p

2005-10-05T12:34:00.000+08:00

i hate exams!!! study everyday so damn sian... study for wad lo... after exam we will still forget everything de... monday is geography exam which is like so horrible la... i couldnt finish... study till so tired den still duno how to do alot... saturday 4am den sleep cos of e geog lo... gor say i cannot sleep b4 4 lo... den i really nv. in e end i was sick again on monday. i like a patron of the clinic lo. i went in and sat down e doctor was like... wad again dis time... last week u jus came... eye still not ok ah? den i was like erh... no... dis time is really sick... lols. but e doctor very cute sia... i was laughing like siao inside and he jus stared at me and go on and on talking abt wads wrong with me. hahas. he din laugh at all lo... after coming out from e room i was still laughing non-stop. e other patients were looking at me like wondering wads so entertaining inside dat made me laugh till lyk dat. -.- The next day was science... physics 2hr and chem 45mins. e chem was a struggle... i couldnt finish it!! i lost alot alot of marks already... gonna fail it. it's e worst paper till now. physics was less hard but still hard to me. lols. cos my science just sucks see? couldnt really finish... anyhow do... today is elit! macbeth is such a fantastic book. very nice lo... jus dat sometimes i dun understand lols. but... still nice la. erh... e poem was quite hard... wad is ' individualised instruction'? very luan lo... den i jus answered yes without knowing wad it means. stuupid right? e macbeth qn was sorta expected ba cos ms chew revised that qn with us ma... duno... still not confident... tink i will flunk e whole eoy and end up being kicked out... but in a sense it's good right? den i will get a chance to transfer school hahas. hmm... now at peisi house... i using her com den she fold stars until erh... is she asleep yet? lying on e bed looking... asleep yea... =p tmr maths eoy exam le.. my maths is always very very very weak. if mr chng saes dat some people failed e exam den i must be one of them de. duno take re-test how many times le sia... too bad eoy no re-test de. i am scared of e graph!! i scared of e whole math paper!! i definitely cant finish de... haish.. opps sorry... gtg to pia maths so dat i can at least pass tmr. lols. buaix...

2005-09-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

oohhmy!! eoy coming already... *sob-sob* and i never study yet... haiish... sho siiaan thses days... nothing is going good de... blahblah... oppps...sorry... cannot say haishh... ohmy... i jus saed it again...nvm nvm. i wun say it again.

my ma told me abt an opera she watched today and she saed dat it's very meaningful... and i tink so too... Life can really change someone drastically and perhaps 5 years later when u look back, u will wonder why did u do dat in e past and when did the great change take place... a couple come together maybe cos of their common interest, maybe it's luf at first sight, perhaps they started off as normal friends... but wadever it is... as they get to know each other better not only as friends, perhaps they will realise dat he is not wad she expected to be and she is not he expected to be... by then the promises of overcoming all problems together being together forever... will everything still be sho true... in e show, e girl was rich whose family was very educated while e guy was poor but very educated. He was hardworking. On the day of their marriage, the guy told the girl dat they were not compatible... they have a huse gap between them... but e girl insisted dat they were compatible... she gave him1000 red candles, telling him dat she will always be by him till he finishes his studies... life was not easy for them... esp for the girl... from a rich young lady, she had to stay in a dilapidated house now, cook and chop firewoods herself everyday. eventually, the circumstances in life forced her to change to become a rough and uncivilised person... shouting at her husband every now and then and ish not cultured at all... one night it was snowing very heavily and the firewoods at home are fully utitlised... her husband returned home saying dat he was very hungry. the girl shouted to her husband dat dereish no rice anymore. her husband went to find rice at home... however the girl complained again dat there ish no more firewoods at home and forced him to go out in the heavy snowto chop firewoods for her... he had no choice but to leave home... e girl felt very angry at home as she felt dat he cannot provide for her... it has been 8 years since they got married but life continued to be so bad... she made up her mind to get divorced with him and used all his books to make fire.when her husband returned with a whole lot of firewoods, she told him dat notonly has she cooked the rice but also ate everything. being shocked at her actions, he flared up at her. however, tinking of their past together, the guy did not want to divorce. the girl acted like an uncivilised person again and ran out of the house, shouting dat she has a useless husband etc. her husband had no choice but to really divorce her... he sat for the exam the next year and successfully passed e test after 9 years of trying... he finally had a position in the court and returned home gloriously. during the year when the guy wasnot with the girl, the girl tot alot abt their past and she regreted divorcing with him as she still lufed him alot. she pleaded the guy to come back to her on the day he returned. the guy was very firm with his decision and refused to be with her again... the girl cried, pleaded and begged... she did everything... but the guy was not touched at all. finally, the girl thought it clear... the beginning was a mistake... all these years she led a painful life cos of the poverty and stuff... she has been brewing a whole jar of bitter wine herself. the girl literally smashed a jar of wine to the floor... [the end]...
Is distance really so important?... i duno... my mum told me dat the modern version of dis story may not be becos of poverty but cos of education level... i duno why she suddenly tell me this too... she also saed dat when two people's educational level has too large a gap, they will eventually run of topics and their values in life are totally different... how can they be together?... she doesnt know anything... she jus saed dat to me cos of what she really felt after watching the show... this has really touched my life sho much... i dun wan to believe it but doesnt these make sho much sense...

2005-09-03T14:55:00.000+08:00

dun euu tink euu sux? i dun wan to scold people de... u alwayz make me veh veh veh veh fan2. haiish... if only i can jus close my eyes... i wld never wan to eva see u or anything dat is concerned abt u. i dun even wan to know u in e first place. cry when u are happy; smile when u are sad... ya? but it's neither of both when it comes to u....or perhaps it's both? i duno.

my illusions... stop blinding mii from knowing the truth
my thoughts... please dun lead mii to thinking abt u
my feelings... stop asking mii to wait
my mind... rest please i am already tired...

2005-09-01T14:48:00.000+08:00

it was such a disappointment... i tot dat going bac to primary school will bring bac fond memories and everything... but it din at all... boring, sian, dead... all i can use to describe e visit lo. i really really wun go next year le. dun keep asking me to go le...

This year class party was sho damn fun!!! yesterday nite peisi and i stayed over at chrystal's house so as to prepare things and bring all the food and stuffs to scchool. 8 bottles f 1.5 l la... almost dead. lols. but we took taxi and i tink chrystal claimed from the class fund. cool right? hahas. we ordered canadian pizza... 14 in total. we reached school at around 7?? luckily the people in class alreay arranged all the chairs and tables sia. den we wore our sarongs. when we went down to e parade aquare, the aunty saed dat all of us wear wrongly le lo. LOLS. none of us are really sure how to... but we din care. the folk dance was sorta a failure??? most of us forgot e dance steps here and dere... e music was sho soft... almost canot hear anything de. aiya... nvm... it was a good experience. ^^ mr ong chunling den sang tonghua which was sho nicee!!! his form class den went forward and sang with him. everyone together... suddenly tot of e crossroads thingy again... haiish.... quite touching ba... we went bac class fer e class party.

the class was in a chaoslo... everyone lyk veh noisy... we started off with musical chair. when e first time e music stop, we realised sumthing funi and stopid... we lyk ganchiong want to find a seat den in e end... all of us were seated. lols. there were 38 chairs when 38 people were playing. hahas. den took away some chairs. i was out during e 2nd or 3rd round... lols. sho fast. janice and joanna was e winner!!! yeahhh!!! the winners had to be punished!!! lols

e next was zong ji mi ma. started with xina tinking of a number, zhoujing guessed it. den jiawei guessed it. den kitleng. they sang a song fer mrs tan and liu lao shi adapted from e happy burfdae song. hahas. all of us joined in and sang together... next round... zhoujing guessed it again!!! lols. fate lo... she alwaes guess it de. e pizza came halfway thru e game den no one care abt e game liao... go eat the pizzas. rmb e first thing chrystal saed was " sorry class... 5 more bottles..." all of us stared at e pepsi(s) and laughed... each set of canadian pizza came wif a bottle of pepsi... sho in total we have 13 bottles!!! siao lo... dunon how to finish sia.

sum of us went down to invite teachers to our class to watch e pp slides... e pictures of our baby photos and guess who they were. lols. zhen lao shi veh excited sia. immediately chiong out of 2d classroom and asked us to carry all e prezzis. after bringing her up to e class, peisi and i went dwn to invite chen quanlong lao shi. there were quite a few number of teachers in e class... forgot exactly ish who... den e slides started!!! first was hongru. zhen laoshi veh pro sia. immediately raised her hands and shouted out hongru's name. i tink she guessed almost all e pictures lo. but chen laoshi guessed mine. he was lyk saying dat it was e girl who invited him up but forgot her name le... lols. i tink jiamin was e hardest to guess lo. e teachers guessed almost everyone le den finally guessed dat it was her. sho farnie la...

den we took class fotos wif e teachers and dey left after dis. lots of food were left but all of us cleared up e mess and arranged e tables and chairs together. i was sho glad... i tink everyone was... 38 individuals united as one... we were lyk dat ytd... i wish dat we can alwaes be so... sweet memories of 2h'05 will alwaez stay wif me till e end. it was e most memorable day.

after which i met my pri sch frens... nothing much to say... sian sian de... sorry la... but... i tink dat i would have preferred going out wif my sec sch frens lo... pri sch wasnt dat pleasant and nice. i waited fer shelia fer damn long la.. e other fuhua people reached much earlier den her sia. lols. wait and wait... den kept calling and msging her to cum faster... went mac wif sum people... go e playground... go home... sian...

overall it was still a very joyful day. it will be completely diff next year... no longer 2hyper' 05. class... i will alwaes lurvve and remember all of u... each and every one made a difference in my secondary school life. sum went crazy wif me sum were my classroom partners and even fer those who i never really talked to... i will miss u... really. hahas. duno why i suddenly sae till sho mushy. lols. perhaps cos i never made any effort to tell all of u dis b4...

let dis parting be a test to our friendship and let dis goodbye not be foreva... 2h... i lurvve u...

2005-08-19T21:17:00.000+08:00

i miss mii deary blog sho much!!! sorry guys... haven blog fer sho long. but it's cos my com down den huishan dun allow mii to use her tablet pc lo. lols. whhoosh! i can finalli update le... ^^

anyway...

GUYS! KELLY GOT INTO E FINALS!!!!!!! oh my gawd!! i was sho afraid she wun get in lo. hahas. sho happy!!! i lurvve kelly!!! She is definitely a SUPERSTAR lo. weeee.....

Common test ish finally over le!! but i m afraid i will flunk my subjects.... blehx... and my piano exam!!! duno lyk wad sia. my hands were uncontrollable lo... anyhow press the key. lols. my scales were the most terrible one. haiyo... nbm nbm. over already. if fail...den take again lo... nth gr8 la. hahax. my piano teacher will get mad if he sees dis. :) also, i decided to giv up piano...will end dis month... cant bear to. years of piano and going to end now... tink i willconsider 2 take it up again after eoy. not sure ah... sho many people suggest dat i dun gib up now.... but but...sori... dis is my decision. lols. howeva one thing for sure ish dat i will stop learning piano but not stop playin. hahas. the exam pieces alwaes drive mii crazy de lo... i cant play classical music la... pop songs sho much nicer and easier to play. sho learning and not learning doesnt make a big difference right? lols.

tmr shld be going out wif chrystal, sijia, jiamin, janice, peisi, xianwen, xianghui and sum other people ba... aiyo... sian+ nervous... dun even noe shld go anot lo. haiish...

after dis time blog... duno when will be e next time liao lo. hahas. will miss mii blog alot de. sho sori guys if i nb update kz? wish all of yaa good luck for e results of common test and dat...........

KELLY WILL WIN KELVIN AND BE THE SUPERSTAR!!!^^

2005-07-26T15:09:00.000+08:00

hey very long nv update blog liaox. lols. las fri got dance concert at kallang theatre and eunice's father drove her, chryz, juatying n i dere. when we were on our way home, felicia suddenly realised dat her phone was missing!!! omg loh. den felicia, jinghui n i went bac e same route, hoping 2 find e hp. jinghui den called her hp n luckily a few guys picked up e phone n returned it 2 her. phew... when i called home 2 tell my mum dat i will be quite late, my mei told mii dat i've got my hp! weeee... hahax. den i took e picture of mii dear po.hehe.

2dae ah... is part of e explorers and connector's dae, den went to chinatown on a heritage journey. it's quite boring actualli. e other classes either went to kampong glam or little india. i tink little india is e most fun one loh. many of dem did henna n bought stuffs... can see dat dey enjoyed. aiyo... 4 us hor... e tour guide jus kept on talkin abt sing blah blah blah. veh sian... almost fall asleep liao. but chryz n i sit right in frnt of e tour guide la... he keep askin qn n lookin at me loh. i dun wan 2 ans de ah... lalalala~ den put my phone inside e bag 2 sms. lols. ms lee nv see. hahax. at 12 sth den go bac 2 sch liao... wait until 1315 den mrs chew asked xiaoxi 2 read us e msg abt myopia... argh borin loh. wan 2 slp liao. after askin a few qns abt myopia, she let us hm le. arh... borin dae

hmph

2005-07-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

wah... feel so cold suddenly. i tot i dun mind or even care abt it anymore. but... i still feel e pain sumtimes. i hav alwaez saed dat pain lessens as time goes by. i guess perhaps it's true. jus dat it realli hurts at times. i m so useless loh. i can try 2 avoid it infront anyone but not infront of miiself. i mind kz? when will i eva stop bein so damn stoopid? jm arh... it's not true dat it's not wrong when u lyk sumone. IT'S VERY WRONG! esp cos i m SOOOO dumb. aiya wadeva larh... stop tinkin liao larh.

hahax. 2dae after dance, went home wif juatying, chrystal n eunice. eunice sae i got a bad habit... lol. dunno how 2 describe larh. den chrystal sae dat i alwaez diaox ppl sub-consciously de. hehe. so many bad habits. =D so ppl arh... if i diaox u all hor, not i purposely de leh. my eyes got prob de. i m so damn sian now! watchin meteor garden. dunno watch how many times liao. i can memorise e whole movie lines le larh. lol. ya btw, i luv dat hello kitty purse! omg... i jus feel in luv wif it. so sweet n cute lohh... i welcum anyone who is kind enough 2 buy 4 mii! hahax. lyk anyone cares. aiy gor. u very very very very bad leh!!! bluffed me lyk dat. oiy ppl care abt u loh.. still sae i childish. u den shld be more sensible kz? waste resources. haish...

-mii pathetic lifee-

haix

2005-06-17T17:47:00.000+08:00

2dae e same old borin dae wif dance startin at 0830 n blah blah~ after dance went popular 2 buy sth 4 e thai students. i bought dem sum postcards. infact i was wonderin wad 2 buy. cld hardly decide loh. so... in e end i bought postcards.
#1 dey r cute
#2 dey r inexpensive!!! p.s 3 for $2 loh
lolx. very cheapo... ya i noe but i m broke. hav no choice. dun blame mii pls.

NOW!!! it's e part. gor... can u pls be a nicer one. haix!!! dunno how 2 sae u loh. nvm... later euu sae i m ****** no.2 again. sumtimes, i jus wan sumone 2 listen n understand. dere's realli lyk no one i can tok 2 now. u dun understand loh... i've got sth 2 sae but u r alwaez so bz n rushin. i duno... isit dat u've alwaez been so insensitive or isit dat u changed? i will 4get it 4 e moment when it is noisy. once it's quiet, memories rush bac n i cant stop tinkin. ya... i cant blame euu. how can ii? u've got things 2 do, it's selfish 4 mii 2 disturb euu. nvm. i will tok 2 po^^ perhaps po is still e nicest. lolx.

new blogskin!!!

2005-06-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yea!! finally changed my blogskin le. Shuyi helped me alot. hehe. she's so kind. 2dae went 4 e step trip briefing... hmm... it's okae lah. except dat we hav 2 wear ethnic clothes 4 e 4th dae!!!! omg loh. den i had e e.lit meetin wif sijia, shuyi n jiaxin as e others r not free. we did 3 backgrnds altogether liaox!!! yea^^ there's still sum 2 go. ehx... nth good 2 write 2dae lehx. i updated e blog cos i feel bad 4 neglectin it 4 so long le. so... i'll end here already. hey.. stop! i rmb sth. Yantong can do such nice blogskins!!! it was e top rated siax. wah... my junior is so talented lehx. lol. anyone who read dis, pls go 2 www.blogskins.com n download her blogskin so dat it is possible 2 becum e top most downloaded. it's at e second position now. okae. dat's all. thanx guys.

hehe... back after a long month

2005-06-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

a-hem... as many of u shld hav known... i have completely neglected dis blog 4 very very long. lolx. very paiseh arh. many of u hav oso posted msg on e tagboard. sry guys. okae. dis blog is UP again!! hehe.

2dae... it was quite a normal dae as dance prac started at 11am. it's considered quite late ba? ya... at least i didnt hav 2 wake up early which i dislike allooott. ytd nite, i did e maths wkst till arnd 1am n studied 4 e chi test abit. den i found dat it was late le n went to bed. i was plannin wad time i shld wake up. dis mornin i woke up at 0930! lolx. i didnt realise dat it was late as i tot dance prac started at 1130. i 4got. blur horx. i was goin 2 leave home at 1030. but i suddenly had e urge 2 double check e schedule. omg!!! i realised dat i muz reach sch by 1100. lolx. it's very late liaox. therefore, i had 2 take a taxi which costed me $8.90!!! haix. i tink dat e taxi driver is inexperienced. he kept driving around e jurong area loh. i almost screamed at him dat i was goin 2 be late larhx. he was almost followin e mrt track as i told him dat rv is arnd commonwealth mrt station. haix... but did i lyk i tell him 2 follow e mrt track? okae... 4get it. it wasnt realli his fault as he still looks very young... 20 sth? it's my fault dat i rmb e time wrongly. so i finally reached sch at 1055 goin 1100. i m juz on time. whhoosh... scareded. dis is not e 1st time alreadi loh.
den e dance prac still okae larh... not very tough but not slack either. i cldnt remain on e split 4 very long loh. so damn painful. lolx. but it's over le^^ after e lunch break, ms leong taught us e across floor thingy. juatying, jinghui, jinhwee n i were in e same grp. our first time trying was a complete failure. erh... not exactly all of us. mostly ME!!! hehex... made alot of mistakes. thus.. i duno who came up with dis "1 2 1 2 JUMP JUMP JUMP" kou3 hao4. guess it was quite useful. still i made a mistake cos i counted 1 2 1 2 1. lolx. got an extra 1. thus i skipped e 1st jump n continued. jinhwee very pro loh. alwaez dance so niccee de. ^^ e others r gd 2. i learn e slowest. alwaez. stupid hor? after e across floor, it was already arnd 1515. ms leong actually wanted 2 wrap up le. budden we still did sum stretchin b4 leavin. which of cos hurts again. we were doin split n were not supposed 2 raise our heads 4 30 counts. i tink dere's sumone who did not follow n thus we re-counted again. we were at 15 b4 we re-counted. but nvm. dun blame her althou i dunno who she is cos i canot realli stand e pain 2. e right n left split is painful but is still okae. it's e centre split dat kills me. jinhwee n munhan jus laid dere... lookin as if dey were sleepin. lolx. dey very pro loh. lyk dun feel any pain de. jinhwee saed dat dere is a little stretch. A LITTLE STRECTH ONLI LOH!!! i almost died of pain n she felt a little stretch onli. haix. i m hopeless. so we left at 1530. i tink. i didnt see e time.
Peiqi, zijia, dawn, juatying, jinhwee, felicia n i went 2 jec after dance. juat ying was so pinkish loh cos her rubberband, shoes n bag were pink. hahax. luve her sooo much. LOL! but she lost one of her earings in e canteen. wad a pity. she saed dat it wasnt realli dat cheap n i tink dat it's nice. It's a silver ring. erh... i m not sure if it is completely plain. so, if any ppl finds a silver earing in sch somehow, den it shld be juatying's. pls return. hahax. do i sound lyk a policeman?
on e way, peiqi wanted 2 take e bus which took 4eva 2 reach. haix. it's 4 sth goin 5 when we reach jec loh. den dey wanted peiqi 2 treat dem. i dunno if peiqi realli did so as i wanted lemon lime juice instead. erh... i didnt use peiqi $$ of cos. after drinkin, i wanted 2 leave le cos it was 5 already. but all of e others stayed. i was leavin jec when i saw sum very cute files. i bought a hello-kitty one 4 myself n a pooh one for my sis. dun comment anythin pls cos i noe it very well dat i m childish. lolx. i tot dat it was very nice. but i doubt dat any 14-year-old teen will lyk dem other den me mayb. so. dun hav 2 sae much abt it. i tink huishan n my cousin were disgusted by e hello-kitty one but huishan lyked e pooh n my cousin tot dat e pooh was okae. my mum saed e hello-kitty one is nicer though. mayb it's cos everyone have diff taste ba. reached home at 1730. den ate dinner at 7 sth. erh.. ya. dat's all.

::hush hush::

2005-05-09T19:53:00.000+08:00

Read ur letter 2dae b4 flag-raisin ceremony. hav e very strong urge 2 cry. but tinkin dat it wld be weird 2 break into tears all of a sudden, i still held dem bac. Why r u so sad? u muz have tot alot b4 writin those things 2 me. u muz be cryin while writin e letter 2 me. u muz hav been very very sad. Why didnt i realise it earlier? oohhh... wad bad fren m i. *Sob sob* but dun worri le ok? i will alwaez be dere 4 u de. hehe. n ppl, i tink dat we muz reali learn how 2 treasure frens around us. there r many peeps around us who r actualli very sad de. so... if u come across my blog sumdae, rmb 2 be hapi alwaez kz? u r actualli very fortunate. Ppl r concerned abt u. I dun wan 2 imagine again how u look lyk when u wrote e letter 2 me. muz stay cheerful hor. realli very hapi dat u r my fren.

1....2....3........ FLUSH!!! SMILE!!! ^^

e.lit finalli over!!

2005-05-09T14:58:00.000+08:00

weee... yea. so hapi. muz-be-studied de subjects over liaox. suddenly feel so relaxed. hehe. juz now peisi n i were so kelian. shuyi, kitleng, candy, michelle n sijia abandoned us n went 2 bugis 2gether!! i tot dat it was 2 far as my mum has already been scoldin me 4 e past few daes. so... 2dae muz be more guai. jm is e most shuang one. went wif **** *** to duno wadeva place. lolx. so patheticalli bein abandoned, both of us went 2 jec 2 eat Jolli Bean. MICHELLE'S FAVOURITE!!! erh... sth lyk low fats, low cholestrol, high calcium, high proteins ba? hahax. 4 sum of us shld understand. jkjk. dun be angry wif mii if u see this one dae. afterwards, peisi came 2 my hse, watch meteor garden n play abit wif po!! yea!! finalli someone sppreciates her. hehe. sj, jmn chrystal dun eeeeee~~~ le kz. but den ps is sick 2dae. very sad. she had 2 go hm at 2.00 cos she realli very tired le. i sent her to e interchange n den went jp 2 walk awhile n went bac hm. alright. i admit it's abit boliao. lolx. but i m very bored mahx.

saw u 2dae standin dere stoned. shld be waitin 4 someone(*p.s her). hehe. see me den nv even sae hi. but i took e initiative 2 sae though. lolx. at 1st nv see u. u too tall n i too short le ba? or mayb i too short u too tall so u nv see me 2? haix. duno lahx. erh erh... if i rmb correctly, i called u "oiy" ritez? hm. gd. i nv call wrongly. jia youx hor. guys muz take initiative de kz. hahax.

E.lit tmr!!

2005-05-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

oh... i hate it. Why isit exams after exams? tmr is e.lit exam n i am dead. cos i nv study much. hehe. usin e com...bloggin now. slack around. so sad. i duno wad happened 2 me... i supposed i said somethin quite bad to 2 ppl n sth very very bad to 1 ppl. hahax. break record le ba. mood not gd mahx. sori hor. dun be angry kz? admit dat i was bad. but aniwae, noe u all very nice de. lolx. no time le. muz go study liaox.

very sian

2005-04-30T17:41:00.000+08:00

eeee... i dun lyk sch n exam. haven finish studyin. pathetic. juz now my sis de fren, sharman came. den huishan was tryin 2 be farnie. she asked me 2 help dem take video. so i helped dem lahx. hs was actin dat sharman was her concubine and po was their daughter. hahax. so farnie. she almost killed po. i shouted "AIY" quite loudly. ruined e whole video. when we replayed e video, it was lyk hs hittin po den suddenly someone shouted. she's so mean loh. nth much 2dae happened.

duno if his fever resided le mahx. Hope u r better now 4 ur exam kz. but atleast i didnt hear anythin 2dae. so... i shld be happier ba. no idea but wadeva. dun reali make a difference.

*yi shen zhui mei li de yi wai, zhui ke pa de e meng

2005-04-29T19:22:00.000+08:00

hehe... yeah.. finalli change my blog name le. so sori.. my dear kitleng for neglectin dis blog 4 soooo long. But anywae, thanx so much. Lolx.

so sad dese daes... some of dem shld noe y ba...erh *no offence. I dun mean u all. doesnt realli concern abt anyone in class. Haix... it's juz dat so many probs are cumin 2 me at e same time. Lyk e mye. definately stressin me out. kz.. but wadeva. my results r alwaez so poooor. for e other realli realli very sad thing... canot sae. but ya, so sad. duno... becos of u lahx... duno y am i so so so silly 2 get sad over dis thing. keep tellin myself it's not worth it le. n wads more, u keep...
k. nvm. noe u hapi den can le.

2dae nth realli much happened ba... althou e malay class is realli quite sian, but at least e cikgu(hehe... sounds quite farnie) were quite 'cute'. Hahax. His lesson sorta nice. den is chi lesson. omg... i didnt brin e wadeva stack of wksts. many of dem didnt bring 2. Shu yi n mich managed 2 borrow dem frm 2f de. mdm tia didnt use it anyway. So... lucki. next is again e borin borin cid lesson. i realli wonder wad's even e use of havin cid lesson n the egg-droppin proj!! it's alwaez projs after projs. never endin. I dun wan 2 study anymore le loh. how much i wish 2leave sch as fas as possible. Schs r sometimes nice but duno y... it alwaez happens... no matter if it's pri sch or sec sch. there will bound 2 be sum unhapi stuffs. lyk wad adults alwaez sae... it's worse when we go out 2 work. in order to get wad dey want, ppl backstab n resort 2 underhand methods. y cant life be simpler n more innocent. ya... i dun mean dat i m innocent or wadsoever lah. i noe i m not, but how nice wld it be if it was in dat way. wad mdm mak said 2dae actualli made sense. dere will alwaez be corruptions n unfairness. wow. tok so much crap le. siao. i m mad. suddenli tink so much 4 wad.

Oh yah... b4 i 4get wad i wan 2 sae is... I realli luv everyone around me n.... so no matter wad i will not blame n hate. sori if i lyk eva made anyone unhapi kz. thanx sooo much.

* wu lun shi yuan jing shen me shi ji, zai tian tang yong bao huo huang ye lui li, wo ai ni, wo gan qu wei zhi de ren he ming yun.

2005-02-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

just created this blog for dearest huixuan. dunno whether it works.. testing out now..